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wow, some zen that makes sense !
it's not all fake, sawaki -
kobun, sort of a lineage
i
like
about
kobun
is
he
died
drowning
with
his
daughter
you
have
to
be
reasonably
in
the
area
to
die
like
that !
it is not a large pool, perhaps 10 yards by 20, and about 2 yards deep it is artificial, with fairly steeply sloping sides and a border of golf-ball-size rocks.
there is a wooden deck on one side, and some reeds growing among the rocks.
no one looking at it could really understand what happened.
he may have been a poor swimmer/diver, or not able to swim and his daughter at the bottom of the pool by the stage he attempted rescue and tho summer, it was quite a high altitude and the water cold and with steep sides and the wooden deck difficult to get onto if the swimmer/non-swimmer was exhausted and cold !
and
echo
sawaki
was
the
real
thing !
i actually think this is sick
there is no academic world separate from the real world and what's the point of an interest in zen if you don't realise the whole world is crazy and pointless including zen !
and in point of fact researching on the web is way more useful than a grad course now.
this is the fundamental point, self researching on the web leaves formal education in the dust !
nurses seem to get affected by the constant viral and general infectious exposure they have and it affects their health and mental health in my observation
the
dead
don't
speak !
the
dead
can
appear
they
can
never
talk
in
the
end
what
does
it
matter ?
you
can
be
but
provided
the
stories
are
rational
you
are
not
functionally
schizophrenic !
truth
is
robust
and
will
withstand
any
type
of
questioning !
infinity
in
hard
to
of course you americans don't eat sanely and cripple your children with too many, badly designed and wrongly timed vaccines ! the need for mood relief is only going to grow !
this
is
what
infinity
is
in
life
one
step
after
another
can
of
course
change
at
least
follow
a
pre-
ordained
path !
the
american
arts
system
if
you've
got
the
money
they
will
take
it
idiot
can
get
a
phd
you
haven't
got
the
money
you
get
locked
into
a
self
perpetuating
labour
speculate
the
effect
this
period
had
on
china's
if
you
can't
go
backwards
you
have
to
go
forwards
there
is
no
staying
in
the
middle !
dogen
is
a
there's
something
really
weird
living
beyond
your
internally
clocked
date
the
thing
is
to
keep
busy
doing
things
if
you
think
too
much
it's
hell !
bishop
is
is
1. zen is passι
2.the publishing world has changed, there's no money in books or music
3. that is you are really amongst equals here, specialists in failure !
4. you are volunteering your time and subsidising cretins like us, keep up the good work !
brad, if you are thinking of doing grad school english, my experience is that they teach you to to read, like and write bad literature , it's that bad. even worse (if possible) is philosophy !
elizabeths bishop's poem one art
zen is immature compared to this !
art
lasts
religion
doesn't !
no
wonder
the
dung
beetle
flies !
when
you
have
seen
it's
painstaking
progress
along
the
ground !
i
think
you
are
an
artist
and
you
are
trying
to
cross
over
into
religion
and
it
doesn't
work !
the
religious
space
is
more
articulated
or
the
artistic
space
so
is
not
actually
artistic
as
humans
we
are
basically
i
am
better
than
dogen !
they
are
all
ok
until
they
are
not
ok !
enemies
friends
a
holy
mixture !
it's
better
to
let
your
enemies
screw
themselves
rather
than
try
to
screw
them
yourself
it
pretty
much
happens
they
do !
the
melancholy
of
a
deciduous
tree
amidst
the
evergreens !
a
resentment
of
existing !
i
don't
mind
being
dead
it's
just
the
getting
there
that's
a
pain !
i
suppose
charles
bukowski
is
a
bit
of
a
watts
tower !
coping
with
humans
are
like
chimpanzees
and
aggressive
and
somewhat
nasty
species !
one
of
the
problem's
with
being
able
is
you
can
end
up
working
for
everyone
else
and
not
for
yourself !
you
are
old
when
osma
bin
laden
is
a
year
younger
than
you !
medicine
is
all
about
flow
what
is
it
about
governors
and
the
governed ?
the
governors !
it's
a
power
competence
relationship !
abnormality
of
life
it's
fundamentally
abnormal
don't
just
scratch
the
surface
CLAW
it !
there's
lots
about
ourselves
we
can't
see
the
personality
can't
see
the
entire
self !
though
we
are
not
conscious
of
it
all
our
actions
are
to
ourselves
parenting
is
an
unending
open
ended
activity !
sexual
reproduction
wins
out
over
asexual
because
the
offspring
are
fitter !
self
stupid
is
the
term !
they
are
all
busy
with
their
lives
kids
the
endless
circles
of
adulthood !
a
few
inches
few
inches !
am
weary
because
it's
all
it's
also
particular !
if
you
are
going
to
win
a
lot
of
victories
should
be
easy
or
at
least
not
too
hard
or
you
will
be
defeated
by
the
effort !
buddhism
is
just
as
false
as
any
other
religion
infinity
because
it
is
without
limit
also
has
a
limit
which
is
why
we
can
see
it
of
course !
in
the
end
i
have
to
bail !
you
don't
have
to
sylvia
plath's
fixed
stars
true !
we
all
have
our
different
anguishes !
infinity
does
kill
doesn't
it ?
the
writing
of
these
poems
and
homilies
is
is
you
have
to
trust
to
infinity
to
deliver
them
and
a
worthwhile
though
often
opaque
sense !
at
ease
amongst
the
falling
osmanthus
flowers
the
bright
moonlight
startles
the
birds
in
the
ravine
to
singing
it
is
spring !
there's
no
right
or
wrong
in
winners
and
losers
or
more
commonly
losers
and
losers !
reality
spans
both
the
imaginary
and
the
real !
half
the
struggle
with
life
is
just
getting
the
mower
started !
religion
is
filth
include
atheism
in
that !
that
doesn't
make
it
true !
buddha
is
a
fiction
there
is
no
historical
buddha !
a
mistake
makes
you
do
something
you
otherwise
wouldn't
have !
take
advantage
of
that !
hurst
i
think
his
buyers
are
a
certain
group
who
have
to
show
they
have
the
money
to
spend !
why
would
hurst
be
worth
more
than
banksy ?
it
doesn't
hurt
to
starve
a
bit
as
you
get
older !
pretty
well
everything
is
irrelevant
as
you
get
older
except
the
decline
in
health
the
trouble
with
thinking
it
is
inherently
humans
are
a
herd
animal
they
are
actually
very
wary
of
going
to
where
the
herd
it
would
make
me
ill
to
be
called
a
teacher !
it's
obvious
that
nuclear
power
stations
make
extremely
effective
bombs
they
are
disrupted
in
certain
ways !
you
are
talking
apocalypse
but
look
at
the
comfy
suburban
lives
you
live !
i
am
schizophrenic
i
really
am
i
just
don't
function
as
a
schizophrenic
but
to
do
this
always
requires
a
crucifying
going
beyond
boundaries
which
most
don't
do
so
they
remain
locked
in
a
web
of
lies !
i
would
ask
those
with
relatives
with
schizophrenia
or
are
actually
schizophrenic
(
i
include
myself
in
this
category ! )
not
to
be
offended
i
use
a paradigm
for
the
human
condition !
the
price
of
schizophrenia
is
to
be
wrong!
your
choice !
life
is
fraught !
young
women
they
are
all
the
same
the
hormones
are
so
thick
they
make
treacle
look
fluid !
jehovah's
witnesses
look
at
you
comfortable
silly
suburban
lives
armageddon
indeed !
i
have
nothing
to
say
to
you
i
certainly
don't
speak
in
terms
of
any
sort
of
remedy
which
you
would
be
far
from
accepting
the
need
for
anyway !
ecclesiastes
wisdom
is
not
acquired
but
given
or
trickles
through
like
light
through
slats
from
the
SUN
a
certain
sort
of
emptiness
descends
the
futility
of
all
endeavor !
sex
and
suicide
together
more and more i am convinced it's a basic human strategy
just take from whatever gives
parents
from
their
children !
everybody
who
reads
this
is
only
a
step
away
from
schizophrenia
the
way
to
avoid
this
is
test
your
views
and
hypotheses
in
the
real
AND
imaginary
worlds
neither
is
sufficient
by
itself !
an
association
between
glaucoma
and
alzheimer's
is
not
wrong
i
think !
smells
of
rotting
flesh !
the
trouble
with
women
is
they
get
over -
glamorized
with
poor
explanations !
it
takes
me
so
long
to
i
have
to
go
around
and
around
in
circles
until
is
the
notions
themselves
are
fake !
that he didn't understand that
not
understanding
that he
understood
that !
understanding that he didn't understand that
not understanding that he understood that !
those
114
year
old
men
are
thin
and
eat
2
meals
a
day !
now
can
you
tell
religion
is
phoney ?
it
is
completely
absent
of
salient
observations
about
life
or
people
the
patheticness
of
socialized
context
self
censoring
censored
only
piffle
is
acceptable
and
that's
all
that
seems
to
be
delivered
anyway
you
would
think
with
what
menopause
does
to
the
female
brain
you
would
no
longer
have
to
fear
them
you
still
have
to
fear
them !
it's
all
the
same
thing
she
is
crippled
by
not
eating
to
feed
her
brain !
not looking for meaning there is no meaning !
go fuck a duck advaita !
in
a
lifetime
30
seconds
of
pearls
infilled
by
blather
looking
for
meaning
there
is
no
meaning
for
meaning
there
is
i
think
i
am
in
permanent
wittgenstein
is
VERY
overrated !
bit
of
a
twit
actually !
the
royal
couple
they
are
really
just
dull
ordinary
people
perhaps
that's
the
attraction ?
breeding
bound
in
an
autistic
way ?
a
fraud
yes
i
probably
am
yes
i
probably
am
a
problem
with
modern
society
is
we
have
abrogated
responsiblity
for
our
health
to
doctors
and
government
bureaucracies
with
predictable
results !
well
anybody
with
a
blog
is
a
writer
so
|
|
|
.
within
my
lifetime
i
have
seen
it
turn
from
a
term
with
meaning
to
become
without
meaning,
rather
like
photography
infinity
is
one
step
after
another
going
on
forever
so
what ?
when
it
exists
at
once
that's
what !
fame
too
many
assassins
in
the
world
now
and
i
don't
just
mean
the
press !
small
portion
of
aggressive
homicidal
readers
they
don't
want
to
know
about
me
and
i
don't
want
to
know
about
them
the
entire
art
market
is
a
con
you
just
have
to
look
at
dali
and
hurst
compared
to
blake
to
whom
dali
at
least
was
heavily
indebted !
thomas
kinkade
there's
something
thematically
unintelligent
about
him
say
as
compared
to
damien
hurst !
if
a
mistake
is
being
made
can
we
look
rationally
at
it?
see
is
god
a
term
or
nonsense
term ?
i
am
hopeless
with
money
not
consistently
hopeless
women
tend
to
forget
the
bad
times
a
bit
easy
i
don't
think
you
are
reluctant
to
live
it
just
reluctant
to
look
at
the
inconsistencies !
fame
and
celebrity
i
think
people
are
reluctant
to
live
their
own
lives
unfamous
and
uncelebrated
do
you
understand
what
life
is
about ?
i
don't
what
is
life
really
about
a
nonsense
term
perusing
a
nonsense
idea ?
russell
brand
i
don't
actually
think
he's
charismatic
which
is
actually
quite
a
healthy
sign
well
a
bit
quite
gender
blurred
btw !
very
articulate !
i
think
the
net
can
offer
a
different
sort
of
fame
you
are
known
but
not
as
a
person !
regarding
criticisms
of
people
on
these
homilies
i
don't
bother
with
the
trash
or
only
very
it's
too
limited
art
only
writing
has
that
capacity !
think
i
would
rather
be
blind
than
when
you
have
good
health
you
can
laugh
in
their
face
when
you
laugh
is
on
you !
spring
and
winter
imbue
each
other
frighten
caress
i
think
boarding
school
is
more
child
minding !
formatting
these
poems
and
writings
can
look
like
play
in
a
way
but
it's
really
gruelling
work !
the
actual
writing
i
find
almost
like
play
and
enjoy
it
when
the
flow
of
words
is
in
moderation !
what
is
special
about
vision?
why
is
hearing
not
the
same ?
zen
is
doomed !
seated
mediation
stuffs
the
circulation !
why
does
it
all
have
to
be
so
cryingly
difficult ?
i
look
across
the
generations
at
the
poets
and
the
like
and
it's
all
the
same
some
ease
in
the
flush
of
youth
then
it's
gone
and
the
premature
fading
sets
in
the
natural
human
one
of
the
problems
of
poetry
is
ellipsis
that
is
there's
a
lot
of
detail
not
in
the
poem
that
we
need
to
understand
it
and
we
have
to
go
to
god
or
infinity
so
to
speak
to
pluck
the
fullness
of
the
meaning !
across
generations
and
geography
and
culture
osip
mandelstham !
we are in that weird space of living after death and i think when we are younger our brains can form some idea of when we are likely to cack it
things seem a bit empty and discommoded, but how else could they be?
space
is
highly
unusual
and
unstable
and
is
best
handled
this
way
and
discommoded
lethe hasn't
yet!
notre
dame
what
a
pile
of
filigree
crap
eons
wasted
a
s
usual
by
humans !
it
doesn't
mean
anything
and
it
goes
nowhere
and
it's
pointless
you
can
shove
it
osip
i
like
wine
and
could
have
been
an
alcoholic
except
i
get
migraine
and
knowing
what
bad
hangovers
are
like
i
don't
need
more
of
them
on
a
basis !
it's
the
nature
of
males
to
kill
and
be
killed !
i am understanding it's much more of an issue than i had previously thought, but the problem is in japan and not california or the usa
also the northern and southern hemisphere have separate weather circulations so really the impact is zero down here from a radiation point of view so i am limiting my concern
i still can't believe the japanese were so incompedent as not to tsumani proof their back up power generators , the failure of which has created the problems and all it would have taken is a few hundred grand and the cost will be trillions to them at least by now !
it's interesting that power stations can be more damaging than atomic bombs because of the sheer volume of radioactive material that can be dispersed, sorta a dirty bomb if you will and i guess this makes them very potent targets for terrorists or an enemy in war
what is infinity ?
just
one
step
after
another
forever !
i
think
chomsky
is
another
wrong
minded
twit
something
lacking
not
enough
attention
to
detail
and
over
prone
to
taking
the
word
of
others
who
agree
with
him
a
s
an
adequate
base
for
reasoning !